There is only nothing.

I’ve been down so long it looks like up to me.

visualtraining:

michael gira: im pathetic im worthless i dieserve 2 die im alone on the floor kill me i love it kill me im a coward beat me kill me end me my erection is bleeding im alone im dying im ashamed im a small man hurt me

me at 17 (n also now): wow..samee

a-sleepygoldenstorm:

Current 93 - A Song For Douglas After He’s dead

If the cliffs were any closer,
If the water wasn’t so bad.
I’d dive for your memory
on the rocks and the sand.

I’d dive for you
Like a bird I’d descend
Deep down I’m lonely
And I miss my friend.

So when I hear you saying,
That we stood no chance,
I’ll dive for your memory
We stood that chance.

We stood side by side,
Strong and true.
just wish you’d remember,
Bad times don’t get you through.

So when I hear you saying,
That we stood no chance,
I’ll dive for your memory
We stood that chance.

Now, I dive black waters
The waters of her dream.
Are black and forgetful
I’d like to make them clean.

So when I hear you saying,
That we stood no chance,
I’ll dive for your memory
We stood that chance.

So when I hear you saying,
That we stood no chance,
I’ll dive for your memory
We stood that chance.

*

I am very sad and I feel more miserable than I can say, and I do not know how far I’ve come. I do not know what to do or what to think, but vehemently desire to leave this place. I feel so melancholy.
― Vincent van Gogh, Letters (1875-1890)

(Source: oiseauperdu)

Why doesn’t anything ever go right for me? What did I do wrong in my past lives? This is stupid.

There ain’t no color in the sky, anymore
And I don’t feel much like singing
Can’t see what for
There ain’t no comfort in this life, anymore
All that I can see that’s ahead of me
Looks like such a chore
Maybe something will happen
To make it all better, better
Maybe something will come along
And make me happy, happy
There ain’t no fun in living, anymore
And I don’t feel much like living
Can’t see what for
There ain’t no life left in me
I feel a bit funny
Like a ghost with nowhere to go
My hope is gone and left me
A desperate man
There’s no spunk left in me
I feel so hollow in me
So empty, so empty, so empty, so empty
A big chunk of what I was is gone
And left me a desperate man
Now I’m a desperate man
A lonely, scared, sad, sorry man
And I just can’t see no color
In the sky, anymore
There’s color there I’m sure
But it ain’t mine and it’s made me blind
A desperate man, desperate
I’m a desperate man

knifetothehead:

River’s bottom dark and blue,
Why do i love you so?
River so clear and blue,
I’m so in love with you, but you’ll drown me.
You’ll drown me.

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